Mother's
Day!!!! I love it. Because I am a mother. And I have a mother. Easy enough.
Mother's day became so special
to me when I became a Mom for obvious reasons, but also, I never wanted more to
show appreciation to my Mom and all the mom's in my life than after I was one. I
joined the club. I knew what it was about. The unconditional love. The mother's
touch. The mother's heart. Man, it is good stuff. I never knew I could shed
literal tears because I LOVED someone so much. I thought I was crazy. Until, I
remembered that's how my mom felt.
I never knew my heart could
physically and literally HURT because my baby's did. But, I can remember my mom
doing the same thing.
My kiddo says the things I say,
acts the way I act, sings the songs I sing, and most of the time can be found
attached to me. I can remember being the same way when I was his age.
He looks to me for
encouragement, and he's getting old enough to make his own decisions. He looks
to me for approval and he knows when I wouldn't give it. Sometimes he tries
anyway. Most of the time he would rather make a good decision than suffer consequences,
and that makes his momma's heart proud.
Let's just be real though, mommin' is hard. It just is. It was hard for my mom, it's hard for me, it'll be hard for
all the momma's to be. It's harder than middle school drama, harder than high
school hormones, harder than college finals, harder than marriage and harder
than divorce. (and that's just stuff I
can personally compare it to)
I look at my seven year old and
think to myself, more than ever, that I'm raising a husband, a dad, a man of
God, and if that doesn't just hit you right in the " momma feels" , I
don' t know what will. I want to raise a man that loves Jesus more than his
family. More than his momma. More than his wife. More than his kids. Is there
an easy button, yet? I want to raise a
man that has self-respect, that respects women, that has a heart for the
less fortunate, for the community. I want to raise a leader. I want him to go
against the odds if it means standing up for what he believes in. I want him to
know how to be successful, to have good work ethic, and to provide for his
family. I want him to have the strength of a lion and the gentleness of a lamb.
Then, I want to raise a son who
is athletic, musically inclined, well educated, can change a flat tire, fix a
car, build a house, shoot with the accuracy of a sniper, hunt, fish, catch
rats, kill spiders and snakes, cook, clean and travel to the moon.... because his family
might "need" him to be all these things one day. Realistic? Probably
not. But this momma heart wants EVERYTHING for him.
I have big
plans, as you can see. Then, everyday life hits. Every. Single. Day. I'm
picking out clothes, making him brush his teeth and comb his hair, then
assuring him over and over that his outfit and hair is "cool". I'm
stepping on Lego's and trying to keep my "cool", because he's watching
and doing everything I do . I'm fighting
through homework, because "I did this at school, why do I have to do it at
home?" I'm fighting through bath time because, "I took one yesterday
isn't that good enough?" Breakfast time. Dinner time. Play time. Bed time.
Then, he comes home from school one day and tells me he's
going to unload the dishwasher because he knows I've been busy, and that he
gave a boy at school money for "something" because he forgot his, and
he asks if we can watch movie on the couch together. My heart. (All good
husband skills, right?)
I've decided that many
great people were raised by moms who thought they were subpar, not getting the
job done, and failing daily. You know, there's a saying, "there's no way to be perfect
mom, but many ways to be a good one".
I know I can't teach my son EVERYTHING, but there's one thing I know
that I can do. I can love the heck out of that kid. I can embrace day to day
life, and know that he's learning by watching me and pray that what he's
learning from me is exactly what he needs.
So to my MOM, good job !!!!!! In my opinion anyway. Thank you for EVRYTHING! And to my momma
friends, Happy Mother's Day!!!!!! You
are doing a good job, even when it feels
like you're grinding the gears of day to day mommin'.
Oh, and this is the newest
Master UnPlanned apparel.. Mom shirts. It's the hardest and most rewarding job
of my life. Man, I love being a mom.
